Goal Ajustment is Good for You

I'm feeling quite wierd today. Slept too much last night (11hours) and still feel quite exhausted. Got through emails and most of my fb messages. I see that there has been some activity on here. I'm pleased about that and I hope you are sharing the link for this blog. I'm a bit sad that nobody has left any comments. I would like visitors to join the blog and tell me what they are thinking. Don't worry about joining the blog, your details are safe and I won't pass them on at all. It's just so that I can keep the transphobic morons off this blog. I've just realised that today is Thursday, which means that I have to get myself together for PMLive Midweek in under 4 hours. I can feel a sensation of panic building up but I must stay focused on calm. Saturday's show was a dire affair! I sounded like a tenth rate beginner! Yesterday, I did consider deleting it but then I thought of why I am doing this blog. That show is showing how much of a fight this can be to continue with living a life that is blighted by mental ill health. Yes the show was crap and I could only manage half of my usual length of show, but I am proud of that crap show because I could easily have said "No show tonight, I'm not up to it". Instead I decided to do a shorter show that would allow me to take it quite easy. Yes there was less pressure on me, yes I sounded crap and yes, most importantly, I did it! I fought through the pressure that was created in my mind and achieved my goal of a one hour show! That is a good way of dealing with such a situation. Look at what you want to do and adjust the goal to suit your capability at that time. I did that and now I am proud of a piece of crap, but it's a piece of crap that I got through and completed.