Deja Vu?

Trying to remember when I last blogged on here is like deja vu, when you have a recollection of something but you don't remember when. My memory is often confused these days, what with sorting out my state benefits, trying to remember to post on here then trying to remember what I was blogging about! Since the onslaught of these mental health problems, my memory has gone quite crazy in its own way. There are times when I am OK at remembering that I've just put the kettle on and I go and make the cuppa when it boils. Other times I could be sat here and wonder where that mug of tea came from. I have been into shops and when I'm outside I go back into the shop to do the shopping again, despite having a bagful of what I just purchased. I might occasionally get asked if I forgot something, to which I would look confused and say that I haven't bought any thing yet. Then I would be politely shown my shopping and make an embarrassed exit. Regular shops I go to are getting used to me.

It's Monday anyway and the start of another week to mess up.  I didn't sleep well last night due to someone's abusive texts and phone calls for no good reason. I had just about got over Wednesday's panic attack and was looking forward to a good sleep and starting the new week refreshed. Instead I got some texts and phone calls that became abusive and threatening from someone who should have known better. Yes, it unsettled me and no, I didn't get much sleep. Consequently, I feel totally exhausted now and about the same as I did on Friday.

This morning, I had a lengthy absence which I can only remember flashes of. I was wandering between the lounge and kitchen while I was asking whoever was there (which actually was nobody) what I should be doing. I think I kept looking out at the weather but can't be sure if that was the reason I kept looking out of the window. I lost a fair chunk of the morning to this absence and my well-being went mostly downhill from then on. I was hoping to record Planet Maz later but I think that will be another job for tomorrow. That's all for now. TTFN.